Over the last few years I've made tremendous growth with regards to the ability to use my voice.  Not just for singing, but for honest communicating in general.  I remember literally being scared to speak out aloud in school when I was a kid.  I remember the first time I sang in public, I almost fainted with fright.  It's been a long and windy round, with many "fake it till you make it"experiences and years since then.  The NDE I had nearly 6 years ago during the birth of my youngest child was a catalyst into a new paradigm foe mr, being so thankful just to be alive, I remember the first performance I had at a friends house afterwards, I felt so free, so joyful just to be using my voice, and sharing music with my friends, and the joy that comes with live music.  My friend commented that she'd never seen me so animated and asked what had happened.  Nothing like a NDE to put things into perspective.  Since then my journey into less fear around using my voice has propelled me up the mountain of my ascension at a greater rate than ever before.  The last few performances I did had me more peaceful, and thankful, and joyful than ever whilst performing, and i realized after from a few comments that others had made, that it wasn't just the singing / performing that some people enjoyed, it was also inspiring for others, who like me, struggle with fear around using their voice.  It's been a torment and teaser forever, I've had a lifetime aspiration to sing, yet have forever felt such tremendous stage fright, it's a pain that I realize is so prevalent.  It makes me feel happy to know that my getting up and sharing from the heart, via my voice, is actually helping to inspire others, in the same way that so many have inspired me.  It's a beautiful thing.  Let's use our voices everyone, our bravery sends healing tones out far and wide, fears be gone!!

My first original song release for 2022 - Far Star, my new single with my Shades Music Project.   Praying for a pro quality video camera, putting it out to the universe, I really want to share live music and musings....   Still haven't shared my patreon account directly, had it sitting there for years, finally finished it a year ago, and haven't bought myself to be brave enough to really directly share it,  hmmmmmm, maybe soon I'll have the courage!!

July 4th, Independence day, has a new meaning for me now, especially if I can pull off the plan in entirety.  I began a years break from Alcohol on the July 4th, 2021, Independence day indeed.  I've also committed to a years break from any sugary treat, no cookies, cakes.  I have a small amount of panela or honey with my tea and coffee but am currently tackling that too by including a little stevia, and less than normal of the panela / honey.  I am trying to slowly increase the stevia, decrease the panela / honey, until such point that I am only using stevia.  Wow, I'm excited, a little apprehensive, but mostly excited.

Why?  Because my body needs a break from Alcohol and Sugar.  My health has been paying a price for the consumption of both of these two toxins.  They have been very enjoyable, and this break will not be easy, but I am prioritizing my health, over the enjoyment of these substances.  Next up, highly processed breads!  Wish me luck, love and prayers!!

A date to remember, a date that I wish
To remember in a year as I re-ponder this,
The hope here burns eternal, I hope my soul is transcending 
All the constant new beggings due to yesterday's sad endings